Letting Go of Control

Breathe , Spray Paint on Paper. Stencil by Katie Schuessler.

Breathe, Spray Paint on Paper. Stencil by Katie Schuessler.

I used to think that once I understood something, like how to trust myself, it would never need to be addressed again. But the more I explore, the more I realize it's a lifetime practice. Like creativity, trust must be maintained, nurtured, and loved within my body, heart and soul every single day.

People often comment on how calm I am. But did you know that I recently began an intentional practice to let go of trying to control everything? My external calm sometimes belies this need to control. And learning to trust myself goes hand in hand with letting go of trying to control.

Part of my practice of letting go of control involves meditating every morning. These days I am working through a book that asks me to meditate on specific themes. I noticed that if I meditate immediately upon waking, the theme stays with me throughout the day, deepening my practice.

At the same time, I am learning to distinguish between what I can control and what I can't. Most of what I am trying to control is out of my hands, so as I learn to surrender, I am recovering lost energy.

Do you have a meditation practice? What does that look like for you, and what are you working to let go of?